Lonely…now that’s a word I’m all too familiar with. In fact I think I can say I was lonely for most of my life. All work and no play can make one very lonely. I knew how to work hard and strive to do my best, but developing friendships was not my strong suit.
· Memories of phones that seldom ring.
· Getting home late from work, left time for little else.
· I chose to let loneliness and lack of trust in God to influence me to make unwise choices.
· The weekends consisted of cleaning, shopping and church on Sunday.
· The Lord, church, Bible study and God’s people became my safe haven where the Lord would show me a way out of loneliness.
· I remember my Bible study leader impressing upon the small group leaders the importance of calling the women in their group each week. She said that in some instances that may be the only call they receive. How right she was…what a painful memory.
As hard as loneliness is, there is a more painful loneliness and that is feeling a distance from God. It may come when I let the noise and demands of the world drown out the voice of God. Or when I stop paying attention to the still small voice of the Lord, or when I willfully choose to sin. It’s then that the silence surrounds me and I’m aware that the fellowship of the Lord has been broken. I feel like my prayers are bouncing off the ceiling. The Lord has a way of getting my attention through silence and draws me back to Himself.
He never leaves nor forsakes me, but there are times He is silent.
Lord…never let me forget the pain of loneliness. Help me to reach out to others. To be a friend, smile, listen and embrace them. I may never know what’s going on in their lives and how lonely they really are, but You do Lord. Help me to see them, hear them, love and care about them. Help me to stay close to You and listen to Your still small voice.
It’s another Saturday morn and I wanted to participate in Lisa-Jo Baker’s Five Minute Friday writing challenge. Head over to her website “Lisa Jo Baker Tales from a Gypsy Mama”. Be sure to read some of the entries from other writers. I can promise you that you will be blessed.
2 thoughts on “Five Minute Friday – Lonely Painful Memories”
Thank you so much for sharing from your heart! These words really made me stop and think, “She said that in some instances that may be the only call they receive. How right she was…what a painful memory.” I am the Women’s Ministry Director, and pastor’s wife at my church and I am guilty of not calling. I should know better because I have experienced the loneliness that ensues as week after week can past with no phone calls coming in my direction.
I hopped over from FMF.
Stopping by from FMF, really enjoyed your post. I’ve been blessed by that single call of the week from a Bible study leader too. Sometimes I think in this day of social media we isolate ourselves until the only human voice we hear is on Sunday morning.