Nathan…Rest in Peace

Rest in Peace Dear Nathan
Nathaniel Hawthorne Bunts
Born June 17, 1991
Died March 30, 2008


I’m numb tonight…as I had my little Nathan put to sleep. I held him moments after he was born…so I had to be there when he took his last breath. It will be so weird going to sleep and Nathan not resting by my side. It will be weird not to be awakened in the middle of the night by a loud howl. Something that Nathan did every night for the last year or two since his mama died. It will be weird not to leave a glass was water in the bathroom sink…because Nathan preferred tap water to the bottled water I gave him.


I wonder if his brother Moss…also 16 years old…will miss him? I think Rudy my 1 year old kitty will.


I know I will miss him greatly. Thank you Nathan…were an excellent kitty. I’m glad that you were my kitty.

Where Have You Been?

Where have you been all my life?
I know, I know…God has been shaping you,
Into the man who would one day touch my heart.

A warm smile,
Graces your face,
As a playful, teasing laugh escapes your lips.

Deep blue eyes,
And penetrating gaze,
At times…I must turn away.

Tendered heart and kind,
Caring…even for the least of these,
Bear witness to a heart transformed by his Savior.

No word goes unnoticed,
Our conversations so deep,
I could spend a lifetime getting to know you.

You treat me like a princess,
Like no man ever has,
Only time will tell…if this will have a fairytale end.

Susan Bunts
March 29, 2008

Live a Life of No Regrets

Having a longer commute than I used to has actually proved to be profitable for me. On occasion I’ll have the radio on…but more often then not…I’ll be listening to some great Bible studies or preaching. Recently I went through the book of Luke which Pastor Chuck Obremski taught when Kindred Community Church was first formed. We were in the book for 86 weeks. It’s a phenomenal study…and even more precious to those at Kindred who lived through that time…as we witness the hand of God on our church and beloved Pastor, Chuck…as God led us through some very deep waters.

After finishing Luke…I had a dilemma. What should I start on next? It seemed only appropriate that I should continue on and listen to the remaining messages that Pastor Chuck did before the Lord called him home. The Heaven Series is one of my favorites…as is the Genuine Servant series.

I remember going through the studies at the time…and feeling very convicted and challenged by God call to come up higher. Pastor Chuck…just had a way of boiling things down to the essentials. He was a straight shooter…and just what I needed. Each week…the Holy Spirit would bring that message home…in a very personal way.

The above clip was from a message called the Judgment Seat of Christ. What struck me was where Chuck said we will know at the time of judgment how things will go when we are standing before Jesus and look into His eyes. We’ll know how things are going to go…by the look in his eyes. He painted a very vivid picture of that day that will come to each of us.

Down here on earth…before I die…is the only time and place I have to get it right in living for the Lord. In heaven…it won’t take any effort to walk with the love of Christ…for my nature will have been transformed. Down here…is the only place where I will have the opportunity to respond with kindness and love when I’ve been mistreated. This is the only place I will have the opportunity to share the Gospel message with those who are perishing. In heaven…everyone will have already been saved. Those who haven’t been saved…will have already been cast into outer darkness where there is weeping and wailing and gnashing of teeth. No matter how loud I shout the Gospel message…they won’t hear me. The chasm has been fixed…there will be no crossing over. Down here on earth…God can take my praises in the face of difficult circumstances…as a witness and testimony to His greatness and His awesome love and power. This is the place where my prayers matter. What I do down here on earth…will determine the rewards I get in heaven. All the right living in heaven…won’t earn me a crown to cast at the feat of my Savior. Right living here and now is where I have that opportunity to love the Lord my God with all my heart, mind, soul and strength. Right here…right now is where I’m storing up my rewards for heaven. What kind of rewards am I earning? Am I going to be embarrassed on that day when all things are laid bare for all to see? Or will I humbly be able to offer a crown to my Savior…in gratitude for His redeeming work on the cross on my behalf?

Live a life of no regrets. Hummmmm…will I?

Don’t Lick the Bowl

It couldn’t be the new guy I’m seeing that lured me into the kitchen, now could it? After all…I forewarned him that this girl does not cook. Boiling water and scrambling an egg…is about the extent of my cooking abilities. I’ve joked for years…I’d better marry a man who cooks or likes to eat out…because if he’s depending on me…he’ll go hungry.

But tonight I made my way into the kitchen…and dared to try my hand at impressing Chris with my limited cooking skills. With recipe book in hand…I pulled out a sure thing to impress a chocolate lover. The Pièce de résistance…a chocolate Kahlúa Bunt Cake.

This cake is so choke full of rich and fating ingredients…that it’s positively sinful. Being that the cake has a cup of Kahlúa I had to remind myself…don’t lick the bowl.

I’m hoping if my cooking doesn’t kill Chris…perhaps I’ll have another date. If it does…well hey…I forewarned him…I don’t cook. Well…on occasion…it’s been known to happen…but don’t get used to it! Good golly I hope he doesn’t expect this often!

Don’t Lick the Bowl… Kahlúa Cake

1 Box of Devil’s Food Cake
4 Eggs
¾ Cup of Oil
1 Cup of Sour Cream
1 Cup of Kahlúa

Mix the above ingredients…and add 6 ounces of mini chocolate chips. Pour in to bunt cake pan and bake at 350 degree for 45 minutes.

Privileged to Serve

This evening I was reminded at what a privilege it is to serve in the body Christ. That it is His church…and His alone. He calls us…from death to life…and then allows us to participate as we minister to the body of Christ and share the Gospel message with an unsaved world.

There is nothing good in me…and nothing deserving of that salvation. Nor can I bring anything to the table other than what He has equipped me to do.

I ought never to take granted that it is a privilege…and a calling. I shouldn’t get too comfortable or set in my ways…assuming that I will always be doing what He has called me to do. Those marching orders may change…in a moments notice. While it might take me by surprise…it doesn’t take the Lord by surprise…for He knows all. Its part of His predetermined will, purpose and plan.

It’s a reminder that wherever I serve…I must rely upon Him. For His strength, guidance and direction. I’m must be in daily prayer…relying upon Him. I must continue to grow in the knowledge of Him…through the reading of His word.

That I must be consecrated to serve. I serve a holy and righteous God. That He requires His servants to be holy and consecrated unto Him. If I choose to sin…and disobey God…I will loose that privilege of serving Him where He has called me.

I should regularly ask myself…as I serve, am I giving out His message in keeping with the Word of God…uncompromised? Or am I bringing my agenda to the table and perverting what He would have me to do and say?

It’s so easy to take things for granted…and be set in my ways. But God…doesn’t allow for that.

It’s important that I be mindful that God must be first and preeminent in my life. That while I may be grateful to work with fellow Christians in serving God…that I must never put my dependence and security in them.

Lastly…that God is not dependent upon my service. That anytime, any place He can call another and raise them up to serve and take my place.

Thank You for saving me Jesus…and giving me the most wonderful church family I could imagine at Kindred Community Church. That You Jesus…for allowing me to serve You and the body of Christ. I am most grateful. To the team I serve with…thank you…and I love you. You are the best…I am humbled and grateful to serve with you.

Labeled

In a world that doesn’t like to think too deeply…it’s easy to get caught up in the trap of defining people by labels. It’s easy…because I’ve got them pegged. I don’t have to look beneath the surface to know them better, to understand them or their pain…or what led them to where they are today…and why they made the choices they did.

Instead it’s easy and comfortable to see them only by their labels. The liar, adulterer, thief, alcoholic, homosexual, druggy, tramp, dummy…and of course who can forget the all around generic label…looser.

Labels…distance me from the sinner that I find so disagreeable. While I’m not perfect…at least I’m not like… Take your pick.

But when I start seeing the person behind the sin…I see more of the human being and less of the sin. I see the consequences of living in a sinful world. A world filled with hurting and damaged people…which only leads to more brokenness.

Labels…build walls and keep people at an arms distance. Labels make me think I’m better than the next guy. But when I see a person and not the sin…it allows me to care…to reach out with the love of Christ and embrace them.

Didn’t Jesus do just that? He reached out to the least of these? He dared to embrace and touch the leper, the prostitute, the tax collector. Those considered unclean or sinners were touched by the holy and righteous Son of God.

Doesn’t He call me to do the same?


The Clock is Ticking

The clock on the wall is ticking,
In between the tick, tick, tick,
Only silence fills the room.

Before me lies one,
For whom I have prayed untold times,
Seeking his salvation before the throne of God.

His breathing is now labored,
Consciousness is fading,
Dare I plead one more time Lord?

Only You oh Lord,
Know the day and the hour,
When the beating of his heart will cease.

That moment when his fate will be sealed,
When the time to repent will have passed,
Entering that place where there is weeping and gnashing of teeth.

But Lord, You tell me,
That today is the day of salvation,
That You desire for all to come to repentance.

So I pray oh Lord,
That You might move in his heart,
Enable him, even now…to hear the Gospel and respond.

Give me the words,
To tell him,
That all have sinned and fallen short.

That our sin debt,
Was paid in full,
Through Jesus Christ our Lord.

That if he will confess with his mouth,
Believe in his heart,
That Jesus Christ is Lord…he will be saved.

Before the night is over,
I pray that his name will be written,
In the Lamb’s Book of Life.

Susan Bunts
March 16, 2008

This poem is dedicated to those who bear the heavy burden of unsaved loved ones. Keep praying! Our hope is in Jesus Christ and Him crucified.