Listening to God

Do you ever go through those seasons where God seems distant?  

David Fisher at Pilgrim Scribblings recently had a post “Powerfully Present” in which I related to his quote:  “If God seems absent tonight…He’s not!  Maybe hidden but NOT gone!”

I’m going through one of those seasons right now.  I continue to read God’s word, pray, attend church and participate in Bible studies.  But God seems distant from me.  

But there have been moments when God has quietly spoken.  Such as when I start my day and I’m tempted to dive right in because there is always so much to do.  But I feel God calling me, “Susan, don’t you want to hear what I have to say to you before you start your day?”  I feel His call to pick up my Bible and read from the scriptures and read from my devotionals.

In the past, I’ve tried to keep a journal, but it’s always been something I started only to stop within a few days.  A couple of weeks ago, I felt God leading me to jot down in a notebook when I’m reading through the Bible verses that stand out to me, or record what’s going on with me that day that I’m struggling with or rejoicing over.  

As I’m going through my day I’m on the lookout for Jesus.  When I have those encounters I’m writing them down in a small notebook.  It may be the Holy Spirit bringing to mind something I’ve studied, or it might be something I hear while listening to a radio program or an encouraging or convicting word that some speaks to me.  

During this time when God seems distant, I feel led to ask the Lord is there some area of sin in my life that is displeasing or dishonoring to You?  Is there something that I need to repent of?  Do I have a wrong attitude or is there an overt action that I need to repent of?  

May my heart be tender towards the Lord and may I be sensitive to His Holy Spirit.

At a Distance

If feel a distance
A wall
Only silence
I know from Your word
You will never leave
Nor forsake me
Why then
Oh why
Can’t I feel Your presence
Is there sin in my life
Without repentance
Have I failed to obey You
Put other gods before You
Do I have a haughty spirit
I feel as if I’m in a fog
Somewhere beyond the misty clouds
You are there
Like the sun
Piercing  through a fog bank
I long to feel Your presence
By Susan Bunts Wachtel
August 4, 2010

Do you ever go through times…where you just don’t feel God’s presence?
That’s what I’ve been feeling for a little over a week and I’m not sure why?  I know with absolute confidence that God is with me.  He has promised to never leave nor forsake me.  To quote the Psalmist, “If I make my bed in hell, Thou art there.” 
While I wait to feel God’s presence once again, I examine myself…to see if there is anything in my thoughts, attitude or actions that are sinful and displeasing to the Lord.  Something that has caused a break in fellowship.  At times like this…I so long for and desire His presence.  He is my life and my joy.