Yesterday marked two weeks since I had my back surgery. Through this whole experience God’s hand and His plan and timing have been evident, for both me and my husband Chris.
God took me from being fearful of surgery to recognizing that this might be the avenue that He would use to bring relief from non-stop sciatic pain. For eight months I was in pain, almost every day, throughout the day. There were times when medicine brought some measure of relief. I even had three steroid injections into my spin to see if that would help bring relief. The second shot reduced the pain level for about three weeks, but other than that, it was clear that the injections were not the treatment that would stop this pain.
In January, I had an MRI that showed severe narrowing of the spin at the L4/L5 level, with bone spurs and the disk intruding in the area where the nerves run down. Thus I had a very unhappy sciatic nerve that just wanted his own space without somebody pushing him up against the spin. That’s not too much to for a nerve to ask now is it?
In February I met with a surgeon who was well accomplished, but left me with little confidence that he could help my situation. Thus I continued down the injection path with little relief.
Upon my return to the pain management doctor, she recommended that I get a second opinion and gave me a couple of names. Thankfully, I was able to get an appointment in pretty short order. My husband Chris accompanied me to the doctor’s appointment. From the beginning of our meeting, I felt a confidence that this doctor would be the one I could trust to perform my back surgery. She displayed a clear understanding of what was going on with my back, recognized that traditional treatments weren’t working and that surgery was a reasonable option. Chris felt the same way and surgery was scheduled for June 30th.
A few weeks before my surgery, I received a TENS machine which the pain doctor had ordered. I was using it in the evening and found it brought some pain relief to my back and even lessened the pain in my leg. I was very grateful because the last two weeks before my surgery I couldn’t take anything stronger than Tylenol.
In the days leading up to my surgery, God was at work and answering prayers. My pain level was very low, which allowed me to concentrate at both work and home so I could accomplish what I needed to before surgery.
The night before surgery, I didn’t have any pain in my back or leg. It was very odd. Almost to the point that I wondered if I should still have the surgery. Yet I believe God’s was leading me to proceed with surgery.
Chris and I had to be at the hospital at 8:30 am. After checking in, we headed up to the same day surgical area. We were surprised when we heard someone in the waiting room calling our names. We stopped and turned to see a precious friend Norm from church who was there to pray with us. Both Chris and I felt God’s presence and His peace about this surgery and were encouraged by Norm’s prayer. Norm even presented us with a handmade blanket for us to keep.
After I entered the room, the nurse went through the normal pre-op checklist. I kept asking when my husband could come in. She said he could come in after they hooked up the IV. Before long, Chris was by my side and we waited for the clock to hit 10:30, the scheduled time of surgery. While we waited, we prayed for the doctor and the surgical team, not only for my surgery, but the surgeries that would be performed that day at the hospital.
As I was lying in the hospital bed, I had no pain in my back or leg, despite the fact I hadn’t taken any pain relievers since the prior day. I believe that it was God’s reminder to me that He was the One who was going bring healing and pain relief.
Finally, the orderly came to take me down to surgery and Chris said goodbye. Of the two of us, I was going to have it easy because I would be asleep for most of the time. I was placed in an area that I call “the holding bin”, where people who are going into surgery are placed until the surgeon is ready. It was a very active place with lots of doctors and nurses coming and going. Finally, two people from the anesthesia team popped in to see me. When the anesthesiologist came by I asked him how he slept and if he was feeling good and I told him I had prayed for him. Before long, Dr. Tina Lin came in to see how I was doing and let me know that surgery would be starting shortly.
The anesthesiology team must have put something in my IV. As they started rolling me in to the operating room I saw the name of the room on the wall and the doors open. Three hours later I woke up in the recovery room.
I was struggling to open my eyes because all I wanted to do was close my eyes and sleep. However, a strong nausea woke me up. I was miserable and the nurses tried to stop the nausea, but it wouldn’t let up and I kept apologizing to the nurses. Finally, after receiving the fourth medication, I started to feel better. I kept telling the nurses I wanted to see my husband. I was in recovery for about an hour and a half when they finally wheeled my bed back to the place I had started the day. Before long Chris was by my side and he was a sight for sore eyes.
He told me that after I was taken in to surgery, he had gone to have lunch. Our friends Mike and Jo came and joined him. When he got back to the hospital he was in the waiting room. He checked with the desk several times to see if there was any word yet on how the surgery was going. They said it was still going on, but assured him that the doctor would come out and speak to him when it was over. He was notified when I was taken to recovery and the doctor came and gave Chris an update.
Dr. Lin said that the surgery had gone well. When she got in she found that the nerve had been pressed up against the spin for so long that it bore the impression of the bone. After removing some of bone and bone spurs she found that the disk was in the cavity much more than what the MRI originally revealed, but she was able to tease it out of the space to make room for the nerve. About 4:30, Chris was able to come see me. He was so sweet and caring and I was grateful to have him by my side. The hospital released me and Chris and I were home some time after 6pm.
I’ve had learning curve when it comes to navigating everyday things like getting into and out of bed, taking a shower, getting into the car, and picking up items that are too high or too low on the shelf. Chris has been an angel and wonderful nurse as he helps me do the things I can’t do. He makes sure that things I will need are at the right height. He regularly reminds me to be careful and not bend, lift or twist. Right before surgery I had ordered a “grabber” which helps me to pick up items off the floor or that are out of my reach on a shelf. It’s been very helpful, especially when Chris is at work.
My recovery is progressing well. When I first got home, I felt like a horse had kicked my back. But with each passing day I feel better and the bruising is all gone now.
My days are quiet. I get up about 6:30 or 7 am so that Chris can help me get ready for the day. I take walks in the morning and evening. With each passing day, I’m able to walk a little bit longer. I’m walking at a slower than my pre-surgery pace but that’s okay because I have the time. I’ve had the time to read books. I love to read but in the past ten years, I’ve been reading considerably less than what I used to. So I am really enjoying reading again.
Since I’m on summer break from Bible study, I wanted to stay grounded in God’s word. Just the other day I started Kay Arthur’s Bible study in Isaiah. I have the podcasts on my I-Pod and was able to download the notes and worksheets to study along with. It’s a great study, in-depth and Kay shows you how to understand a passage verse by verse by applying the who, what, when, where and why questions to a passage.
One of the biggest encouragements has been the support of family, friends and neighbors. When Chris and I came home on the 30th, our neighbor brought over her homemade chicken enchiladas. My sister brought over Mexican lasagna. Some of our friends from church provided meals. Yesterday a friend came by to take me grocery shopping. I’ve had few visits from friends, received cards and notes of encouragement, flowers and a gift card to go out to dinner. Thank you so very much each and every one of you…Rosie, Denise, Mary, Annette, Cindy, Rose, Michelle, Karla, Robyn, Carolyn and Beth & Jim. Each of you truly has the gift of encouragement and knows how to reach out and help the least of these. Thank you for your faithful prayers, God has truly answered them and has brought pain relief and healing.
Thank You God for having Your hand upon me and leading Chris and me through each phase of this process. Thank You for answering the many prayers of family and friends and for their gift of encouragement. Thank You for the time to take walks and listen to Your word, to work on a Bible study and pray. Thank You for giving me back the love of reading which has been absent for far too many years. Thank You for the time to sit in the back yard and watch our precious birds as they eat, drink and even take a bath in the bird bath. Thank You for the cooler weather this week! Help me to stay focused in prayer and study of your word. Help me to rest, heal and reach out to others during this time off work.
31 Days of Power Learning to Live in Spiritual Victory
In 31 Days of Power Learning to Live in Spiritual Victory, authors Ruth and Warren Myers show you how to raise the Sword of the Spirit by praying God’s Word. Each day focuses on a different aspect of God’s perfect work and plan and the victory found in Christ and His triumph over Satan.
I found the book well balanced with the scriptures predominantly focused on God, who He is, what He has accomplished and is able to do. The authors warn the reader about the mistake people tend to make: “So we can blame too much on Satan; we can give him credit beyond his due.” Through praying scriptures, the authors keep the focus on God and victory that we can have through Him.
In addition to putting on the full Armor of God, the 31 Days of Power also includes chapters on the “Commander of Victories”, “Exalted Lamb, Defeated Foe” and the “Good and Mighty Shepherd” among others topics. The last section of the book talks about “The Dynamics of Spiritual Warfare”.
I recommend this book, especially for those who want to learn to pray Scripture or those who find themselves in a spiritual battle. 31 Days of Power would make a good yearly devotional allowing you to pray the powerful Scripture verses again and again.
I received this book for free from WaterBrook Multnomah Publishing Group for this review. I was not required to write a positive review. The opinions I have expressed are my own. I am disclosing this in accordance with the Federal Trade Commission’s 16 CFR, Part 255 : “Guides Concerning the Use of Endorsements and Testimonials in Advertising.
Resolved Conference – Day 1
Resolved Conference – Day 2
Resolved 2011 Conference – Day 3
Resolved 2011 Conference – Day 4
Gifted Hands
Called
Gifted
Hands used by God
An instrument of His healing
Equipped
Learned
A faithful steward
Of talents and abilities entrusted by Lord
Wisdom
Experience
Hands that bring healing
Skillfully guided by the Great Physician
by Susan Bunts Wachtel
June 4, 2011
This poem is dedicated to Dr. Tina Lin who will be performing my back surgery this morning and to Jesus Christ my Great Physician and Healer.
Thank you to the many people who have been praying. The Lord has been so merciful and good in answer your prayers. I have the peace of God that passes all understanding.
Erasing Hell – Francis Chan
Hard Reading
Last night, before going to sleep, I picked up my Bible to read from Matthew. I don’t think I realized it until afterwards, when I started reading one of my favorite books “At Home in Mitford”, how challenging it can be to read Bible.
When I read the Bible, I’m examining myself in light of God’s word and that can be hard work! While my outward actions and words might seem okay, God looks at my heart. God uses His word to expose the thoughts and intentions of my heart and sometimes it’s not pretty.
Praise God that I feel that conviction of the Holy Spirit. Praise God that He is at work in me. Praise God that when I submit to God in obedience, He changes and molds me into the person He designed me to be, making me into the image and likeness of Christ. That work will continue until I die.
While I’ll enjoy reading books, fiction and non-fiction, it can be a way to escape and to not confront myself with the mirror of God’s word. That’s not to say I shouldn’t read books other than the Bible, but I need to put the word of God first in my life. I need to be ready and willing to let God do the hard work of shining the Light into the dark recesses of my heart and mind and clean out the uglies.
99 Balloons – Every Life is Precious in the Eyes of the Lord
Please stop by Joshua’s blog and read his post on prayer. Joshua is a man after God’s own heart. He loves the Lord and is filled with love and compassion for people. He is a passionate prayer warrior and shares the Word of God.
Prayer as a Way of Walking in Love: A Personal Journey
Do you love to pray or do you struggle with prayer? Do you want to grow closer to the Lord? Do you want to have a heart like David who was a man after God’s own heart? Be sure to listen to Francis Chan’s message at this year’s Desiring God Conference for Pastors. It’s one you may want to download and listen to again.
The Eastman Chronicles…Convicting
I love reading other blogger’s writings, especially Christian bloggers. I love hearing what the Lord is teaching them through the study of God’s or about the work He is doing in their lives.
One of my favorite bloggers is Michelle Eastman at “The Eastman Chronicles”. Michelle is an amazing woman of God, wife, mother, daughter and friend. She is open and transparent about her life and her love for the Lord and His word is evident in what she writes and how she lives her life.
Click on over to “The Eastman Chronicles” and be challenged by today’s post “Incredibly Convicting”.
Just Thinking…Trials & Tribulations
It’s easy to love the Lord when things are going good in our lives. But I find out if I really love the Him during difficult times and trials and tribulations.
Fear is unbelief in action. It reveals who my focus is on, is it on the Lord or is it on me? Do I depend upon the Lord or rely on my strength?
Trials and tribulations are instruments God uses for good in our lives. If I trust God during hard times my faith is strengthened. My love for Christ Jesus grows.
Do I really believe, do my thoughts and actions reflect the truth of Scripture that He is the Potter and I am the clay? Clay being molded doesn’t get off the Potter’s wheel and protest, whine and complain. Instead the clay submits to the skillful hands of the Potter.
You are our Father;
We are the clay, and You our potter;
And all we are the work of Your hand.
Isaiah 64:8
Selfish & Fickle
Recently when struggling with God about something that I didn’t think was fair, I felt as if the Holy Spirit rebuked me. He challenged my thinking which was focused on me, how I felt and what I wanted.
It’s hard, if not impossible, to love someone else when I put myself first. When I make my feelings the measuring rod by which I determine if someone is right or wrong or good or bad, they will always fall short in my estimation.
That doesn’t even take into account the fickleness of my feelings. I need to remember God’s counsel that the heart is deceitfully wicked above all things.
Words of a Gossip
Words of a gossip
Go down with ease
Taste sweet to the hearer delighted to partake
Pride
Arrogance
Judgment abounds
Two or three gathered together
Words said in a whisper
Lest anyone else should overhear
Ugly heart
Ill intentions
Calculated and designed to raise themselves up
Beware to the one who listens
Soon you will be the topic of conversation
Your name will be bandied about in a whisper
Instead step away
Shut your mouth
Lock your ears
Know there is One who overhears it all
He knows the thoughts and intentions
Of our sinful, wicked hearts
By Susan Bunts Wachtel
June 3, 2010
Oh how I hate gossip and know its destructive force. If find it amazing that people are so easily lured in to the conversation of a gossip. Do they really think that the person with whom they are conversing won’t do the same thing to them at an opportune time? If someone was gossiping about a loved one…how would they feel? Angry, upset over the injustice and judgmental attitude from the ignorant, wicked heart? There is nothing good about gossip!
And loves many days, that he may see good?
13 Keep your tongue from evil,
And your lips from speaking deceit.
14 Depart from evil and do good;
Seek peace and pursue it.
Psalm 34: 12-14
Yes, seven are an abomination to Him:
17 A proud look,
A lying tongue,
Hands that shed innocent blood,
18 A heart that devises wicked plans,
Feet that are swift in running to evil,
19 A false witness who speaks lies,
And one who sows discord among brethren.
Proverbs 6:16-19
And the tongue is a fire, a world of iniquity. The tongue is so set among our members that it defiles the whole body, and sets on fire the course of nature; and it is set on fire by hell. For every kind of beast and bird, of reptile and creature of the sea, is tamed and has been tamed by mankind. But no man can tame the tongue. It is an unruly evil, full of deadly poison. With it we bless our God and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in the similitude of God. – James 3:6-9
Just Thinking…About the Lord
I find comfort and assurance in knowing that the Lord never wrings His hands in worry. Nothing takes Him by surprise. God never has an anxious thought. He doesn’t toss and turn all night or need an extra cup of coffee to get through the day. He’s never weary. God never wonders “what if”.
Patty Biven’s Blog
This last year, it was my privilege to do an in-depth Bible study through Community Bible Study in the book of Revelation. While I’ve read and studied Revelation before I came away from this study with a greater understanding of this book and confidence that the prophecies are true and will come to pass. It certainly gave me a greater passion and desire to pray for the salvation for unsaved family and friends. Especially in light of what they will face if they live during the tribulation period and an eternity in hell for those who reject Christ Jesus as Lord and Savior.
The teaching director for our class is Patty Biven’s. God has greatly gifted this woman to teach His word. She is so faithful to study each week and dig into the truth of God’s word and share it with women who are hungry to know God and His word.
To my great delight, Patty Biven’s has started her own blog. She is open and transparent and shares what she is learning through the trials she and her husband are currently facing. Her faith is a testimony to God faithfulness and His work in a servant fully committed to Him.
Are you going through trying times? Have you been impacted by the economy and job loss? Are you loosing heart? Is your faith waning? If so…click on over to Patty Biven’s blog and read what God is doing and what He is teaching Patty during this season in her life.
If you are looking for an in-depth Bible study, please consider Community Bible Study. If you live in Orange County, you may want to sign-up for the Orange Evening Women’s class. Starting this fall we will be studying the gospel of John.
Charismatic Chaos Enters the Mainstream
A friend had recently shared how powerful Pastor John MacArthur’s sermons are on the Charismatic movement. Truth filled sermons and exposing the lack of biblical doctrine, errors and documenting blasphemous, heretical teaching of many Charismatic leaders.
I am so thankful for Pastor John MacArthur and Grace to You ministries who have made available for free the download of thousands of sermons he has preached for over 40 years. I went online and downloaded Pastor MacArthur’s series “Charismatic Chaos”.
My eyes were opened to the subtly of Charismatic teaching that has made its way into mainstream churches, pastors and Bible studies. Teaching that is based on personal experience that’s put on par with or elevate over the Bible. Feelings take precedence over Biblical truth. People claim that they’ve received messages from God, however those messages don’t always line up with scripture.
The problem comes if God is still speaking to us outside of scripture, then the Biblical canon is not closed. Who do you believe? Do you believe the Bible or do you believe the person who is claiming to have a word from God?
Because the Bible is whole, perfect, complete and the plumb line by which everything should be measured, if someone’s teaching doesn’t line up with the Bible then they are in error.
At first I found myself saddened when I recognized some of the errors in one of my favorite Bible study teachers. But I realized that I should be grateful that we have been given the inerrant and inspired word of God by which we can discern error. Am I going to love God and His word above all things and people? Am I going to love Him with all my heart, mind, soul and strength? Am I going to guard the truth?
I believe that all too often people, especially women, have a hard time confronting error and standing for the truth. We are so easily led by our hearts instead of reason. But when I see erroneous teaching, it’s an opportunity to reach out and do so with love and humility and covered in prayer.
From the beginning Satan has been mixing the truth with lies. He still does that today. The enemy’s lies touch our feelings and emotions and it’s hard to see the truth from the lie. But if we have an unchanging standard of truth, the Bible, we can measure what we are hearing against the truth in the word of God.
I marvel that you are turning away so soon from Him who called you in the grace of Christ, to a different gospel, which is not another; but there are some who trouble you and want to pervert the gospel of Christ. But even if we, or an angel from heaven, preach any other gospel to you than what we have preached to you, let him be accursed. As we have said before, so now I say again, if anyone preaches any other gospel to you than what you have received, let him be accursed. For do I now persuade men, or God? Or do I seek to please men? For if I still pleased men, I would not be a bondservant of Christ. – Galatians 1:6-10
To listen to Pastor John MacArthur’s sermons on the Charismatic movement click on the links below:
The Bible
Perfect
Complete
Infallible
Truth
Trustworthy
The Standard
Authoritative
Sufficient
Effect
God breathed
Inspired
Word of God
Susan Bunts Wachtel
May 28, 2011
PAIN!
After seven months of being in pain, 24/7, I’ve finally come to a decision to undergo surgery for my back problems (stenosis, bulging disk, bone spurs, sciatica, etc).
Not only has this impacted me, but it’s adversely effected my husband Chris most notably regarding sleep. When mama ain’t sleeping, ain’t no body sleeping! On a good night, if I take a pain killer right before I go to sleep, I may be able to sleep for about 5 to 6 hours before waking up in pain. I have back pain as well as pain in my right ankle from sciatica. On a bad night…there’s not a whole lot of sleep happening at the Wachtel household.
I’ve tried some of the more conservative methods to bring pain relief including a course of three epidurals. The second epidural made the most impact by reducing the pain for about three weeks. Other than that…there’s not been a whole lot of relief.
Chris and I met with a neurosurgeon to get a second opinion. I feel confident that this was the right doctor to entrust my back to. She had studied my MRI and was able to show us exactly what’s happening and what treatment she recommended. I felt relief at her words, “After undergoing conservative treatment for several months, which has brought no relief, surgery is a reasonable option.”
People’s reactions and opinions are kind of funny. I’ve had advice from many different perspectives. There are those who are dead set against surgery and suggest seeking help from chiropractors, acupuncturists, spinal decompression, etc. There are people who had back pain who have undergone surgery with great success. I know one man who had surgery who had more pain following surgery than he had before. The one thing I know for certain is that there are no guarantees and everyones body responds differently.
People’s responses have been passionate! They relate their experience and what worked for them, confident that’s the step I should take, some without knowing what’s happening with my back. I’m sure that their intent is good and they desire that I find permanent relief from the pain, but honestly often I walk away more confused than when I started.
When I mention I’m considering surgery, I’ve experienced a lot of disapproval from people who think I’m making a huge mistake. After being in pain for seven months straight, not having a good night sleep in months, not being able to sit or lay down without being in pain, surgery seems like a good and reasonable option.
We both know that if there is any healing or relief from the constant pain, that it’s the Lord doing the work. He uses various means to accomplish healing, including doctors, medicine and if He so chooses, a miraculous healing that can only be attributed to God.
We know that we need to trust the Lord in this situation, no matter what. Should He choose to heal me, we will praise Him. Should He choose to not heal me, we will praise Him. Our praise of God is not contingent upon a favorable outcome.
The one thing that is certain, our dependence upon God has deepened. When crying out to Him for pain relief and when seeking wisdom to make life altering decisions, like surgery, we are depending upon and looking to the Lord.

