Recently, I was reading my Joni Eareckson Tada devotional before I went to sleep and something she said really stuck with me.
When reflecting about knowing Christ, Joni prayed, “Lord, I confess that I know more about You than I really know You. I don’t want to be that way. Never, never do I want my knowledge of You to be an illusion. Help me to consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing You.”
When I read that sentence, “I know more about You than I really know You”, it jumped off the page. I felt like the Holy Spirit was calling me to pay attention and ask, “Lord, do I know more about You than know You?” As much as I hate to admit it, I’m afraid that’s true.
Why would I settle for knowing something about Christ, rather than spend the time getting to know Him and have a deep and growing relationship?
In some respects knowing something about God is easier than having a relationship. It’s black and white, it’s on a page. I can add to my growing list of truths what I know about God. I can check off my box I’ve read my Bible today or prayed. I can fit it neatly in to my daily schedule.
But’s it’s a whole different thing to spend time and get to know the Lord. It includes being vulnerable and honest about my failings, fears, limitations and sin. It’s taking a risk and waiting upon the Lord. Will He really do what He says He can do? Will I trust God when He’s silent, when His timing is different than my timing and when His plan looks a whole lot different than my plan? I will be disciplined and choose to take my every thought captive to the obedience of Christ? Will I take the time to put on the Armor of God each and every day? Will I focus my mind when I’m reading the Bible and not be distracted and let my mind wander? Will I seek counsel from God’s Word rather than from the world, or from my heart which is deceitfully wicked apart from the life changing work of Christ in me? Will I meditate on God’s Word and let it convict, correct, encourage, strengthen and change me? Will I set aside the distractions of this world…phones, computers, Facebook, Twitter and allow the silence to quiet my heart and mind? Will I tune my ear to hear the chastisement of the Holy Spirit? Will I bend my knee and say, “Thy will be done.”?
Lord, as we begin a new school year and study Your perfect, holy and inerrant Word, I ask You to help me know You more. I want to know the Bible well, so I can discern truth from error. But I also want to spend time getting to know You more. May that time with You change who I am and how I live each day. I want to trust You more, I want to love You more and I want to unashamedly tell others of the salvation and hope that I found in You Jesus.