Just when I thought I’d moved beyond it
I see wounds from the past and brokenness
Still impacting me today
Time has moved on
As has the one who fell short
Leaving scars in their wake
This side of heaven
My questions will remain unspoken
“Why?” and “What were you thinking?” will not be answered
I wish I had been able to talk it through
Or hear “I’m sorry”
And confess my sins against them too
Lord I need to forgive completely
Not dredge it up again
Let the pain remain in the past, not feel it afresh
Lord, I need to follow Your example
Forgive completely, once and for all
Cancel their debt
Help me to remember
Not only did Jesus pay my sin debt in full
But He died for the sins of the world
You are lavish in grace, mercy and forgiveness
Not holding my sin debt against me
You have cast my sin into the sea of forgetfulness
I need to remember
Unforgiveness is a sin
Like all sin, I must repent of it
Show me how to live this out day by day
Help me to remember that You never waste my trials and pain
You are working things out according to Your perfect plan
Thank You God that Your forgiveness is not like mine
You forgive fully and completely, even to the uttermost
Heavenly Father, help me to be more like You
by Susan Wachtel
June 19, 2014
O rebellious and fallen one
I have a deliciously bad report
About the saints who are the apple of our Enemy’s eye
While they will never join us in hell
We are able to render them powerless to an unbelieving world
They stand in their pews and sing loudly
About the wonder working power of the blood of the Lamb
They pray that God will forgive their trespasses
As they forgive those who trespass against them
All the while they hold on to unforgiveness in their heart
I especially relish their unforgiveness towards another saint
They read their scriptures
Assured that God remembers their sins no more
Yet they have a tally sheet of the sins committed against them
Their memories are like a steal trap
Their Father in heaven has put their sins
As far as the east is from the west
But they hold offenses close to their heart
Ponder them daily to justify their disobedience
My favorite is the saint who thinks they have forgiven
Yet refuses to fellowship with one whom they will spend eternity with
God tells His saints
That the world will know they are Christians by their love
God reminds them if they love Him
They will obey His commandments
Yet somehow the sin of unforgiveness
Slips under the radar
The command to forgive
Is easily pushed aside as they nurse an old wound
As such…unforgiveness is a marvelous tool
To render the saints witness ineffective
Well I’m off now…back to work
As I seek to steal their joy and peace
Susan Bunts Wachtel
August 11, 2010
Have you ever noticed that forgiveness is easier after the fact, after the offense is over?
When an offense is ongoing and repeated it’s much harder to forgive.
It’s easier to forgive someone who has repented, acknowledged they were wrong and apologized.
Unforgiveness can be all consuming…it can take over every thought.
Satan uses an offense or a hurt by another person to help us justify holding on to unforgiveness.
Unforgiveness NEVER makes me feel better. I only feel worse as I replay an offense over and over again in my mind.
An offense or hurt grows the more I dwell on it. It’s like hitting a bruise with a hammer and wondering why it still hurts or feels worse.
I want others to understand my motives when I sin against them…but I want to judge others by their actions.
There is no freedom in unforgiveness…only bondage. Bondage to the person who hurt us and bondage to Satan and his will for our life.
Wrongdoing from someone we love hurts more than from a stranger.
When we are wronged in public…shame, humiliation or embarrassment fuels the fire of unforgiveness.