One of my favorite things to do is visit the Fullerton Arboretum. The pictures above were from my recent visit on Sunday, March 29th. Enjoy a little bit of spring.
Arboretum in Springtime
Hymns of Old
Hymns of old
So rich in theology
Proclaim the excellencies of Christ Jesus
They tell of His humble birth
His human incarnation
Of the One who was here before the world began
His sinless, perfect life
Of the innocent Lamb
Slain before the foundations of the world
Veiled in human flesh
Yet He is the very essence of God the Father
He set His glory aside that He might redeem the lost
He came to do the will of the Father
The propitiation for our sin
Turning away the Father’s wrath
He suffered like no other
As He hung on Calvary’s cross
Marred beyond recognition as a man
Even bearing the weight of our sin could not compare
To the pain of separation when the Father turned away from the Son
For He who is Holy, Holy, Holy cannot look upon or dwell with sin
Death could not hold Him
The sinless Son of God
He arose victorious from the grave
Today He is seated
At the right hand of the Father
For the work He came to do is finished
By Susan Bunts Wachtel
April 12, 209
While I love all kinds of music…both hymns and choruses…there is nothing quite like the old hymns. They are so rich in theology and Christ centered.
Some of the songs today are very man centered. In focusing on us, we lose the magnificence of God’s plan and Jesus sacrifice for unworthy sinners. We were dead in our sin there is nothing in us that is attractive or deserving of our salvation. It was Jesus Christ and His sacrificial death on the cross in obedience to the Father’s plan that earned our salvation. He paid the debt we owe, but can never pay.
While God’s love motivated His plan of redemption and salvation through His Son Jesus Christ…it was His holiness, righteousness, justice, and wrath that necessitated our sin debt be paid.
May we choose to know God fully as He has revealed Himself in the Word of God.
Once, But Now
Once my lips cursed You
Now I praise You
Once I denied You
Now I seek You
Once dead in my sin
Now I proclaim salvation is found in no other name than Christ Jesus
Once I ran from You
Now I follow You
Once I heeded my own voice
Now I listen to the voice of the Good Shepherd
Once I longed to fit into the world’s mold
Now I desire to live the sanctified life
Once blinded to my own sin
Now I see my “good works” in light of Your holiness and righteousness
Once a sight walker
Now a faith walker
Once my own advocate
Now the Son sits at the right hand of the Father interceding for me
Once a grumbler and complainer
Now a prayer warrior
Once I held on to hurt, nursed a grudge
Now I forgive as I have been forgiven by my Lord
Once I hated my enemies
Now I love and pray for those who come against me
Once I allowed every kind of evil thought and wickedness to enter in
Now I guard my heart and mind in Christ Jesus
Once filled with anxious thoughts
Now I have the peace of Christ
Once I put on self righteous
Now I’m clothed in Christ’s righteousness
Once I walked in my own strength
Now I’m weak but find my strength in Christ
Once self sufficient
Now fully dependent upon God
Once I was defenseless against a powerful foe
Now I’m armed with the Sword of the Spirit
Once deceived by the lies of the enemy
Now growing in wisdom from the study of God’s word
Once bound for eternity in hell
Now my heavenly future is secure
By Susan Bunts Wachtel
April 11, 2009
On this Easter weekend 2009, I give thanks, honor and praise to Jesus Christ, my Glorified Risen Lord and Savior. Because He chose to take on flesh, receive my just penalty of death, I stand forgiven. Because He chose rejection, scorn, beatings and death on the cross, I can have my sins covered by His precious blood. Because He was the sinless Son of God, death could not hold Him down and He arose victorious from the grave. Now He imparts, through the power of the Holy Spirit living within me, power and victory over sin.
You too can have your sins forgiveness…by Jesus Christ, the One and Only Living Son of God. You can have your future in eternity secured if you will confess with your mouth and believe with your heart that Jesus is Christ is Lord.
Why go another day without Jesus Christ?
Two-thousand years ago…He paid a heavy penalty for your sin so that you might be set free. Won’t you accept that free gift found in the Beloved Son?
God’s Will
God’s moral will
Is clearly revealed in scripture
Reinforced by the Holy Spirit within
But knowing God’s will for my personal life
Is often better understood
In hindsight…after the fact
What step should I take next
What direction should I go
What choice should I make
It’s tempting
To try and interpret His will
From the unfolding of recent events
May I tread carefully
Not stumble into dangerous territory
By reading the signs and putting God in a box
Rather than seeking a desired outcome
May I desire to walk closely with You, Oh Lord
Knowing that Your presence is my great reward
By Susan Bunts Wachtel
April 7, 2009
“God’s Will” was inspired by recent events in Chris and my life involving the purchase of our first home together. As we’ve gone through some ups and downs it’s been hard to know what God’s will is. But I think we are finding out…day by day as we walk with our Savior, Jesus Christ.
The above photo is from our collection of wedding photos taken by Sherry Hebestreit. Sherry did a marvelous job. Both Chris and I were not sure about having a photographer for our wedding. But Sherry did a lovely job and we cherish the memories of that day especially when we look at the photographs. If you would like information on how to contact Sherry, please send me an email and we’ll forward your inquiry on to Sherry Hebestreit.
In, But Not Of
I am in the world
But not of it
My ears are tuned
To the beat of a different drummer
Daily dying to self
I’ve been crucified with Christ
That which used to attract me
Now repels me
I’d much rather learn God’s word
Than pursue that which will one day be lost
Storing up in heaven riches
That which can never perish
Oh Lord, may I glorify Jesus my Savior
Rather than seek the praises of men
Honor Him who died for me
Praise the One who set me free
By Susan Bunts Wachtel
April 1, 2009
Just Thinking
Tonight, while driving home from Bible study with my husband Chris, I was thinking on how amazingly blessed we are. As individuals and as a couple. Our church has been richly blessed with Pastors, teachers and leaders who are faithful to preach the full council of God’s word uncompromisingly. Blessed to live in a nation where the Gospel can still be freely preached. Blessed as a Christian who can tap into the abundant resources available today, as never before.
I spent a lot of time today listening to John MacArthur’s sermons on spiritual warfare. This evening I started to download the messages from this year’s Shepherd’s Conference. John MacArthur and Grace Community Church have “opened their vaults”…and the years of wonderful Bible study are free for downloading. They truly are unleashing God’s word one verse at a time.
I’m feasting on a veritable smorgasbord of God’s word regularly.
The Holy Spirit brought to mind God’s sober warning…to whom much is given, much is required. I have to ask myself…do I diligently and passionately seek God and study His word. Do I crave it and treasure it and obey it?
In third world countries where the Bible has been outlawed…when the people receive a Bible…share it with one another. Each person taking a page. Then they pass the pages around. I’m sure they memorize it…since they may never see it again. They hunger and thirst for God’s word and the truth therein. Do I?
I may fill my days with God’s word…through Bible study and church…podcasts and music. Being fed richly and abundantly.
But it’s out in the real world…in everyday life that I see if I’ve let God’s word change my heart.
Am I dying to self and living for Christ? Day by day, more and more am I laying aside my plans and seeking God’s will? Am I willingly to be obedient to God…even when I don’t understand His plans? Do I see sin as God sees sin? Do I love the unlovely? Do I seek to be holy as He is holy? Do I live for God and desire to please Him? Or do I still seek after the approval of men? Or worse…do I seek to please myself? Is my focus and delight on God or me?
I can sit in church as much as I like. I can attend Bible studies every day of the week. But until such time as I love God with all my heart, mind, soul and strength and seek to obey and please him…I’m not letting God’s word work in me and transform me as God desires to do.
When I get a grip on the absolute goodness and holiness of God and His nature…then by the power of the Holy Spirit within…I can submit myself to His eternal and glorious plan.
Will I?
“Susan, choose this day Whom you will serve!”
A new day will soon be dawning…and I will have a choice to make.
What Grace Is Mine
Yet For a Season
In a place
Where I cry out for God’s deliverance
Yet for a season
God’s will is to keep me here
Right where I’m at
When necessary
I put my hand over my mouth
Think a second time
Choose to look on the good that God is doing
In the midst of uncomfortable
It would be so easy
To withdraw
Harden my heart
When the reason for God’s delay or His “No”
Is unknown to this frail human soul
But instead God has given me His word
By the power of the Holy Spirit
I can learn from the examples of others
I can stand strong, purpose in my heart to believe God
Or go down the path of unbelief which surely leads to destruction
Oft times His will is inscrutable, unknowable, a mystery
That’s when God calls me to trust Him
Believe that He is good, holy, righteous and just
He is working all things together for good
For this one who loves Him
Susan Bunts Wachtel
March 12, 2009
Discouragement’s Victory
Discouragement reporting for duty
Greetings powerful evil one
The day is young but the time is right
I’ve already begun to make my rounds
While I may not rob them of their salvation
Through defeat and discouragement
I can keep them from experiencing
The joy and peace of their Master
I can lead them down the path to failure
Use their own sin nature to cause them to stumble and fall
I move by stealth
They are unsuspecting of the enemy’s plan
I stir up discontentment
Cause them to grumble and complain
Focus on what they lack
Rather than turn to God in prayer
Like the Jews of old wandering in the desert
They experience deliverance by the mighty hand of God
Witness miracle after miracle
Recipients of God’s grace, mercy and compassion
Yet I cause them to question their God
Demand deliverance according their plan
With unbelieving hearts
Choosing to doubt God’s goodness and character
Unyielding
Unbending
They will not submit their will
To God’s perfect sovereign plan
Pride and selfishness
Such effective tools
Rather than God
They enthrone themselves upon their heart
The mouth which should praise Him
Is instead filled with grumbling and complaints
They are focused on the here and now
Rather than submitting to God’s eternal plan
No crown will they receive
To lay at their Savior’s feet
Their works like wood, hay and stubble will one day burn
What remains will lie in an ash heap
I will have the victory
If I can distract and disarm them
Keep them focused on themselves, rather than God
Discontent and disheartened…believing their God does not even care
By Susan Bunts Wachtel
March 5, 2009
A Today Thing
Then Caleb silenced the people before Moses and said, “We should go up and take possession of the land, for we can certainly do it.” – Numbers – 13:30
Despite fatigue following a draining and trying day…I was eager to go to Bible Study Fellowship. I’ve found in the past the more difficult the day…the more reasons I have to make an excuse not to go…it’s all the more reason I need to be there. God always rewards the effort to study His word by giving just the right word of encouragement, correction or guidance.
I mostly listened to the other ladies share this evening. I had answered all my questions and was prepared with an answer in case Sheryl called on me…but I needed to hear what God was saying to the other ladies.
This year we are studying the life of Moses. We are now in Numbers and the last two weeks have been particularly good studies. Some meaty and convicting chapters. Mostly about the Israelites grumbling against God in unbelief. About their failure to trust God or be grateful for what God had already done.
I took those lessons to heart. Being in a state of transition in very uncertain times…makes me more willing to endure circumstances and people that are less than desirable. As such…it can be very tempting to grumble and complain. Add the influence of people I encounter who have a habit of complaining…or being critical and condemning of others. With very little effort…I can be going down that road too.
It’s only by the power of the Holy Spirit and some well timed conviction and early warning I’ve been able to rein in my tongue. Sometime more successfully than others.
Even though tonight’s lesson encompassed the Israelites complaining and grumbling…I found that my attention was drawn elsewhere. It was almost as if God drew my attention to Numbers 13:30. In the passage Caleb encouraged the Jews that indeed they should go in and take possession of the land. He knew that they could accomplish this feat because God Himself had promised He was going to give them the land.
That verse spoke volumes to me…and applied to so many areas of my life right now.
As the discussion continued…my thoughts were stirred. I realized that obedience is a today thing. When God requires us to trust Him, believe Him and act in faith…it is a now choice.
When I choose to shrink back in the face of giants…or tremble and not set foot on the path where God has called me to go…I have no way of knowing what cost will be extracted by my act of disobedience and unbelief.
Even the act of grumbling is not so small after all. That’s where the disobedience and unbelief started. It cast aspersions on God’s character and His faithfulness to do what He has promised and his ability to do so.
But obedience is the outworking of faith. It’s submitting my will to God’s will…even when I don’t fully understand it. Courage that stands in the face of giants is what God calls me to do. Obedience when all around me tells me to do otherwise…is what God rewards. It reflects trust and faith in the One who is more than able to do abundantly more than we ask or imagine.
The best part about it is…that God will strengthen and enable me to do that which He requires. But I need to ask in prayer.
If the Israelites had known what their disobedience would cost them…the 40 year wandering in the desert, that all but two of them would die and not enter the Promised Land, that their children would be impacted and suffer as a result of their unbelief…would they have chosen to obey?
But just like the Jews…I won’t necessarily know the consequences and ramification of my lack of faith and disobedience until after the fact. There’s no mulligan’s in the walk of obedience. Obedience is a today thing.
Because my God is merciful and compassionate…as long as He permits me another day to serve Him…I will have another opportunity to choose to obey Him and follow His will.
I won’t fully know the rewards and fruit of obedience until I get to the Promised Land of heaven. But down here on earth…in this one life…this is where I sew. It’s in heaven I will reap the eternal rewards.
Delighted
Imagine my delight when I had a comment from a precious friend about a poem I had written. My delight would soon turn to surprise when I found that this beautiful, godly, young lady has her own blog. Knock me over with a feather when I found her brother also has a blog.
While I was surprised to find their blogs…I wasn’t surprised by the love for the Lord these two precious friends write about. Both Rachel and Joshua are genuine…and have such a tender heart for God. They love Jesus Christ, they love studying the word of God and praising Him Who Is Worthy. In turn…they love people too and are committed prayer warriors.
Please be sure to visit Rachel and Joshua’s blogs. You will be challenged and encouraged in your faith. You will want to come up higher and love the Lord much deeper.
Rachel’s blog…is Hope Journey
Joshua’s blog…is A Warrior’s Heart
Beautiful
Beautiful is the woman who loves the Lord
She grows sweeter
With each passing year
In the midst of difficulties
Trying circumstances
She leans on, depends upon the Lord
She has a peace that passes all understanding
When others around her are anxious
She has a quiet trust that the Lord will work it out
Her countenance radiates
Joy and happiness, peace and love
As she grows more like her Savior
Her voice is sweet
She chooses to bless and not curse
Praise God and pray
She befriends all whom she encounters
Confident that the Lord has brought them into her path
Humbly she offers encouragement and wise, godly counsel
She raised her children
In the fear and admonition of the Lord
Trusting God’s faithful promises to those who love the Lord
She does not grow old
No matter what the calendar might say
Instead she’s growing into the woman God designed her to be
She has an inner grace and radiance
A light that shines forth
As she basks in the glory of the Lord
She looks forward
To the day the Lord will bring her home
There she will be reunited with those who have gone before
She does not fear for her future is secure
Her hope can never be shaken
For her foundation is built on Christ alone
By Susan Bunts Wachtel
February 26, 2009
One of my favorite things is to turn on the digital picture and watch the pictures randomly scroll through the hundreds and thousands of pictures that are loaded on that little tiny memory card. Yesterday as glanced over at the picture frame…Jean’s picture came up…and in my mind I could hear her sweet voice from singing the night before at Bible study. Soon the pictures of many other women whom I am so blessed by God to know came up. I found the contrast striking to the last poem I wrote about…“Mean Girls”. What a difference these godly women who continue to grow in the Lord. With each passing year, they grow more beautiful…and radiate the love of Christ.
This poem is dedicated to these beautiful women of God that I know. I thank you for the example you share…and pray that one day…I will grow into the woman God created me to be. Love you so much and thank God for you!
ESV Study Bible…Give Away?
Well I’d never heard of the ESV Study Bible. But a quick Goggle search revealed that many of the pastors and teachers that I respect and listen to give much praise to this version of the Bible.
Pastor John Piper…says the study notes are breathtaking. Joni Eareckson Tada says it’s reliable and true. CJ Mahaney is impressed with the ESV Study Bible…and advised that a Christian could make no wiser investment.
That’s just a few of the many high praises coming from reliable trusted Christian pastors.
As such…I’d like to win…thus the link to David A. Porter’s “A Boomer in the Pew” blog.
Check it out…so you might win this valuable resource for your Christian study library.
Mean Girls
When Beth uttered the words
“Mean Girls”
Without elaboration I knew exactly what she meant
Her words brought uncomfortable laughter
From the audience of women
Who discretely examined their own attire
Immediately came to mind
The names and faces of those women
Who display their wares freely for all to see
A mean girl has been blessed
With a beautiful, attractive body
And she believes that’s where her self-worth lies
A mean girl thinks “it’s all about me”
She allows you to be her friend
So long as you both agree
Provocatively dressing
Tempting men to look or even stray
To contemplate what it would be like to be with the “other woman”
Her speech is flirtatious
Prompting a man to think
That it’s him that she truly desires
When in fact
Nothing could be further from the truth
But he has willingly fallen into the snare of the deceiver
What about that teenage mean girl
Where are her parents
When she’s walking out the door
What kind of dad let’s his daughter dress that way
Knowing full well
Boys aren’t just thinking that she looks pretty
Where a mom’s natural desire
To protect her daughter
Teach her modesty and that true beauty is found in the inward spirit
Mean girls can be found anywhere
With cleavage prominently displayed
Short skirts revealing their shapely form
Lest you think
The mean girl is unaware
Of her effect on men
Don’t be naïve
Her dress is done with purpose
Her intent is to attract attention
Her power and drive
Her self esteem
Is rooted in her ability to make a man look
By Susan Bunts Wachtel
February 24, 2009
The above poem was inspired by Beth Moore’s study in Esther. In Session 3 Beth talks about how it’s hard to be a women in a mean world. Sometimes that mean world includes “mean girls” who are lurking and tempting our husbands, sons, brothers and friends with their provocative revealing dress. While I’d like to believe that there are no mean girls in church…at times it seems there isn’t a lot of difference between those in the church and those in the world. The other day I heard a quote that rang true. They said “where there is a low view of God…there is a low view of sin”. What was once viewed as sinful is no longer seen in the light of God’s holiness.
Do not let your adornment be merely outward—arranging the hair, wearing gold, or putting on fine apparel— rather let it be the hidden person of the heart, with the incorruptible beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is very precious in the sight of God. – 1 Peter 3:3-4
My Darkest Hour
In my darkest hour
You are my bright and Morning Star
When my head hangs low
You are the lifter of my head
When tears fall I remember
One day you will wipe every tear from my eyes
Even when I feel alone
You are my Friend who will never leave, nor forsake me
When life leaves me burnt, devastated and scarred
You bring forth life, growth and renewal
From the depths of sin
You redeemed my soul
From the edge of destruction
You snatched me from the enemy’s hand
When I feel as if I can’t go on
You lead me through dark ravines and narrow canyons
When my foot slips on the dangerous precipice
You uphold and steady me on the path again
When weakness overtakes me
You strengthen and sustain me
When doubts assail me
You keep my mind stayed on Thee
When my circumstances demand an explanation
Your presence is all that I need
When nothing around me makes sense
I trust that Your eternal plan being worked out
When I am heavy laden
I go to the One who bids me to come for His burdens are light
When decisions demand an answer
I come to You for wisdom
When I am restless with uncertainty
Peace and comfort are found in You
When pain consumes me
I turn to the Great Physician
When the wait seems long
I will wait upon the Lord
When no one seems worthy of my trust
I will trust in the One whom the Father declared worthy
When my trials seem big
I will run to Him who is bigger still
When this lamb is lost and has wandered far away
I cry out to the Shepherd who will seek and find me
When death presses down on me
I look forward with eternal vision
Susan Bunts Wachtel
February 23, 2009
Dedicated to the many people who are bearing heavy burdens, where explanations are few. May you continue to trust in our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ…and cling to Him ever so tightly.
Unforgiveness Heavy Price
My heart has turned cold
It’s hardened towards thee
Over a hurt perceived
It’s hardened towards thee
Over a hurt perceived
What if the offense was intentional
What if you don’t care
What if the words “I’m sorry” never come
I know I should open my heart
Find the words to say
Restore fellowship with you once again
Yet my heart is reluctant
Unwilling to risk vulnerability
By giving voice to the pain
My heart has grown cold
It’s visible on my countenance
Effecting my thoughts and deeds
Oh Lord, I know this is wrong
Tender my heart
To Thy perfect will
My conscious is pricked by the words I read
Unforgiveness exacts a price
Heavier than I’m willing to pay
I want harmony and unity
With my fellow Christian
Fellowship restored with God and man
Susan Bunts Wachtel
February 16, 2009
The Path Not Chosen
On a path
She did not choose
Yet it will willed by God
She did not choose
Yet it will willed by God
Slowly
Eventually all
Would be taken from her
Eventually all
Would be taken from her
Even there
Blessings were found
In the midst of Alzheimer’s
Blessings were found
In the midst of Alzheimer’s
Once unable
To openly express love
She unashamedly offers hugs and affection
To openly express love
She unashamedly offers hugs and affection
Susan Bunts Wachtel
April 2009
April 2009
While unpacking the remaining boxes from our move I discovered a writing tablet that I used to carry with me on my visits to see my mom. I discovered this poem that I had written just before her death. The exact date is unknown…but it was in late April 2008 shortly before her death.
My mother Gayle Lorenat feared Alzheimer’s because her sister had died from it. She saw its effects and the devastation first hand. I hated it because it took a smart, bright, proper woman…and robbed her of dignity. Yet at the end of her life…after six years of Alzheimer’s I had to admit…there were a few blessings from God in the midst. One of those blessings was that my mother who had never been one to be affectionate or say I love you was finally able to freely express love.
The picture above was taken of my mother, Gayle Lorenat shortly after we moved her into Brighton Gardens. She was more with it at that time and tried to give the appearance of normal. She had to wear a bracelet that would set off an alarm because she liked to “escape”. I called it her “LoJack” bracelet. She would walk away and have no idea how to get back. She was unable to communicate coherently.
The Stethoscope Video
Broken, Hurting Soul
Here I am
A sitting duck
Vulnerable
For that which so easily entangles me
I have sinned
Against God
And against man
Justifiably reproached by those who love me
I long to flee from sin
Say, “No!”
Turn my this ship around
But how
I haven’t the strength on my own
Where do I begin
How do I start
To turn my life around
I’ve tried…really I have
It seems like every door is closed
Slammed shut in my face
What am I supposed to do now
I don’t even know if I believe in God
But I do believe in the devil
For he has deceived me
I believed his lies…hook, line and sinker
Drugs and alcohol
They were supposed to numb the pain
Help me feel good about who I am
Make me forget about everything I’m not
But before I knew it…sin took hold of me
What kind of son betrays his own mother
The one who loved me
Always freely gave
I went from the occasional
“Little white lie”
Before long
My heart grew cold and calloused
Now I’m
Trapped by my iniquity
With ease I’ve hurt and used
Anyone in my path
Society tells me
I’ve served my time
Paid the price
For the wrong I’ve done
Now I’ve been set free
I want to change…I really do
People tell me they are praying
Not sure what that means…but please don’t stop
Yes…I desperately need God’s help
But I also need
A helping hand
From real live flesh and blood
Someone who understands
Knows what I’m feeling
Encountered those demons within
That I’m fighting with all my might
Someone to hold me accountable
Show me how to get along
What to do…what not to do
How to live in the day to day world
Someone who understands
What seems like baby steps
Is a giant leap
For this broken, hurting soul
Susan Bunts Wachtel
February 10, 2009
When I read the first lines of this poem to my husband Chris he thought, “Oh no…what has Susan done that she needs to confess?” But I assured him it wasn’t my story I was writing about…but instead a compilation of some of those broken, hurting souls we know. It is by the grace of God…I’ve been spared the wayward path of some.
But we all know some of these people…family or friends whose lives have spiraled out of control. Or maybe…just maybe…it’s me that God has delivered from my wayward past. May God help these broken, hurting souls.
Thank you to those who have a heart to help. Those who offer a helping hand, prayer, wise counsel from God’s word…and tough love. This poem is dedicated to Gary Peterson who heads the Prison Ministry at Kindred Community Church.
Missing
I tell people that you are missing
The truth of the matter is
I have no idea what’s become of you
Until “that day”
I had always thought highly of you
Believed that you were upstanding and hardworking
Then the truth of your character
Was revealed
The depths of your depravity became clear
After that
I didn’t want to have much to do with you
The occasionally obligatory phone call sufficed
Because of our mom
We had to have some contact
But then you faded away
Has it been five or six years now
I forget
Time and events all seem to run together
Honestly I found myself angry
Resentful
That you had nothing to do with our mother
No cards
No phone calls
No checking in to see how she was doing
Was it guilt that drove you away
Or because the well had dried up
It was no longer profitable for you
Well, your mom has been dead
For almost a year now
I have no way to let you know
Or are you still out there
Anonymously
But somehow still in the know
It’s hard to imagine
That the one who resorted to dishonesty
Would not seek his fair share of what remained
That’s why I fear
Wonder daily
What’s happened to you
Did you cross the wrong person this time
Reap the consequences
Of the depths to which you’ve sunk
Is your body lying in a shallow grave
Hidden…never be discovered
Will your fate ever be known
Are your remains in a morgue
The name John Doe
Tied to your toe
Are you imprisoned
Has the law finally caught up with you
Are you paying society its due
Or are you far away
In some distant land
Hoping to avoid the penalty for your wrong doing
There is not a day
That I don’t think about you
Worry and wonder what’s become of you
I don’t know where to begin
Or what to do
To find you
The search I paid for
Came up fruitless
All traces of you disappeared a few years ago
Only God knows what’s become of you
Dear brother, I pray that the Reveler of mysteries
Will reveal what’s happened to you
Susan Bunts Wachtel
February 11, 2009
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