Enough?

 
Reeling from the sting of rejection
I cry out to the Lord
He answered me
Is My love not enough for you?

In whose eyes do you see yourself
Is it in the eyes of sinful man
Who will falter and fail
Or is it in the steadfast love of the Lord

You are accepted in the Beloved
Redeemed by the precious blood of the Lamb
I will NEVER leave, nor forsake you
My love will never fail you

Is My love enough for you?


A Lesson in Forgiveness

 

Oh how merciful our God is.  He knows my frame and my weakness.  In the past…I’ve struggled with the issue of forgiveness.  Over the years…and by God’s grace…I’ve learned that it’s important that I forgive completely and quickly.  That my failure to do so will only cause harm. Unforgiveness is disobedience.  
 
An unforgiven hurt is a useful tool in the hands of the enemy.  He can grow that weed abundantly…and it will choke out the good fruit.  So why would I want to cooperate with the enemy…the one who hates my soul and works against the Kingdom of God and His people?  
 
During my drive time last week, I was listening to a Beth Moore study in which she talked about forgiveness.  One point that struck me is that I need to bring my hurts to God and let Him bind up my wound.  I’m not sure that I fully understand what all that means.  Perhaps it means to trust Him to bring healing to my hurting heart; to trust Him in whatever He does.
 
I know when I have sinned the Holy Spirit does business with me.  He convicts me and doesn’t let me get away with sin.  Why would I presume that He would do anything less with others?  Trusting God enables me to pray that He will be merciful towards another who has wronged me…knowing that God will give them exactly what they need: compassion, comfort, conviction or discipline.  He alone knows their heart and motives…not me.
 
One of my favorite studies on forgiveness is by Charles Stanley.  One of the most convicting points that he makes is how can I continue hold something against someone, when God has forgiven them.  Jesus Christ paid the penalty for their sins…all of them…on the cross.  How can I hold a charge against God’s elect?  The obvious answer is…I can’t.
 
That point was made crystal clear to me yesterday during communion, while remembering Christ’s death on the cross:  how His body was broken and His blood was shed to cover my sins.  His blood not only covered my sin…but took them clean away.  Not only my sin…but all who believe in His atoning work on the cross.  His blood not only took away my sin…but also the one who sins against me.  His blood has washed all our sins away.  Dare I hold onto a charge against another?  
 
When I thought about that…visualizing Jesus’ death on the cross…can I imagine going up to the cross and nailing to the cross a charge of sin against someone?  Knowing that it’s Jesus who died and suffered for sin and that He paid the penalty in full?  His blood still flows free and takes our sin away.  
 
When sinned against I can give thanks.  Thanks to God for exposing something ugly within me that needs to be dealt with.  Or perhaps, see that I’m growing in obedience and trusting Jesus by quickly forgiving.  It can also serve as a reminder to be praying the person who causes an offence.  
 
Oh how sweet freedom is.  Freedom to forgive.  Freedom to go on and not be locked in the past.  Be free to live each day…fresh and clean.  
 
There is no way I could do that on my own; it’s only through the work of Jesus Christ in me.  What the enemy intends for evil…God intends for good.  Praise His Holy Name!
 

Just Thinking

These are just a few of the thought ruminating through my mind this quiet Tuesday evening. 
What does it mean to die to self daily?  What does picking up my cross and following Jesus look like?  Is it reflected in my thoughts, attitude and how I treat people?  Does it impact my words?  Is how I dress a reflection on my heart towards God?  Is God first in my life?  What objective evidence is there that’s true?  What has God wrought on the inside that’s reflected outwardly? 
I can’t even imagine how hard it must be to be a Christian teen or young adult in today’s culture that is secular at best and hostile to Christianity at worst.  Where moral relativism has given way to sanctioning evil and even giving hardy approval.  A culture that calls good evil and evil good.
As much as I hate to admit it…I think that the secular culture is influencing Christians more than Christians are influencing the culture.  God calls Christians to be in the world, but not of it.  What does that look like?  How do Christian parents raise their children to not succumb to the secular culture?  To hunger and thirst after righteousness?  Don’t we need to examine ourselves first?
Have you ever noticed how Satan loves to tempt us to sin?  He swoops in during a time of weakness of vulnerability and presents an attractive, subtle alternative to God’s way.  He appeals to our sinful self that desires to put ourselves first, over and above God.  Once we fall and take the bait…that roaring lion turns and calls us by our sinful name…liar, cheat, thief, drunk, adulterer…and on it goes.  He tempts us to sin…and we like stupid sheep follow him.  Afterwards…he condemns us and tells us how we’ve let God down and reminds us we are undeserving of God’s grace. 
Do you know that just as God has a plan for your life…so does Satan?  Whose plan are you following? 
Have you ever noticed that a Christian’s sin may not as visible as other sins?  They usually involve the heart.  Sins like gossip, slander, condemning or judgmental attitude.  These sins are frequently rooted in pride and are every bit as deadly.    
Is there anyone in your life, that when you spend time with them…you walk away feeling like you’ve been with Jesus?  Who comes to mind?  Doesn’t someone who has a passionate hunger and thirst for God…who loves God and His Word…who has a healthy, vibrant, bold prayer life…don’t they spark something in you to want to know God more?  What’s keeping you back?
Sometimes it’s hard to pray for unbelievers when they are in difficult circumstances.  The hope and assurance that you can offer a fellow believer doesn’t hold true for those who don’t know Christ.  So what do you pray?  God often reminds me that as much as I desire for their salvation…He desires it even more.
Is your salvation prayer list growing?  Do you find that you now pray for those you once considered enemies?  Do you pray that God will deal with those in sin…but give them mercy and grace? 
Have you noticed how God uses marriage to help us grow?  That He desires for us to be holy more than He desires us to be happy? 
How much have we lost…how much territory have we given over to the enemy?  Do you ever get tired of scoring a goal for the enemy? 
Do you ever hold back on your prayers…almost afraid to ask God for something in case it’s not His will?  Do you feel like you are protecting God’s reputation…and not putting Him on the line by asking for something boldly?  Are you protecting God or yourself from disappointment?  Does it hurt more when God says no because we know He has the power and ability to do what we ask…but for unknown reasons…it’s not His will.
If you died today…do you know where you would spend eternity?  Based on what? 

God’s Will

 
Oh how the enemy robs me
When I fail to yield to God’s will

When I want what I want…in my timing
Unwilling to wait upon the Lord

When I plan my ways according to my will
But the Lord directs my steps elsewhere

Then anxiety fills my heart and mind
The peace of God evades me

When I try to manipulate circumstances
Unwilling to admit they are far beyond my control

When I stand in judgment of people
Who just don’t cooperate and mess up my plans

Then frustration and anger reigns
Consumes my every thought

When I don’t trust that God is good
Unless He answers my prayers in the manner I deem best

When my prayers are orders
Instead of a humble petition to omnipotent God

Then I raise myself up
In place of God

Oh Lord, give me the mind of Christ
Help me to die to self daily, pick up my cross and follow You

Put me in the refiner’s fire
Consume any wicked way that remains in me

Help me to wait upon You Lord
With confident assurance all Your ways are good

Susan Bunts Wachtel
February 26, 2010

Recently I was reminded of a time in my life…when I wasn’t yielded to God’s will.  Some of that struggle went on after I became a Christian.  Praise God…He keeps on whittling away at my sinfulness and conforming me into the image and likeness of Christ.  It’s an ongoing work this side of heaven.

Double Harvest in Haiti

Your donation to the Double Harvest Disaster Relief project will go 100% to the victims of the earthquake. Your donation will buy fuel for transport of materials to be distributed at the project, food, fuel to pump pure water from the wells on the farm, medical supplies and medical care. Long term friends of Double Harvest have built a general fund that takes care of administrative duties. Please be assured that Board Members of Double Harvest are in Haiti making sure that these activities are taking place in a way that your donation is being used to full capacity. Thanks for your help. 
You may also send a check to Double Harvest at the address on the Donate page. Please designate clearly on a separate note: “Disaster Relief”. We thank you for your concern and prayers.

Help Haiti Live Benefit Concert by Compassion International

Help Haiti February 27th – HelpHaitiLive.com from Compassion International on Vimeo.

HELP COMPASSION HELP HAITI
On January 12th an earthquake shook Port-au-Prince leaving thousands dead and many more without food, water, or shelter. Now, more than a month later, Compassion International is still standing with the people of Haiti.

Compassion has been meeting the physical and spiritual needs of Haitians for more than forty years and will continue to serve them in this time of extreme need. Already Compassion International has supplied more than 15,000 families with clean water, food, blankets, temporary shelter, medical supplies and counseling.

On February 27th, 2010 tune in to HelpHaitiLive.com to watch a multi-artist multi-city concert to help Compassion help Haiti. Proceeds will lay bricks, feed, educate, clothe, heal and rebuild Haiti in Jesus’ name for many months to come.

Blog Party…Are You Game?

The blog party continues at Abigail’s Rear Window blog.  Like any good party…you try to get to know folks.  If you are game…head on over to Rear Window and join the blog party. 

1.  What’s your favorite time of the day, and why?
Early morning when I’m taking my walk.  The world is quiet…the sun is coming up and it feels like it’s just God and me.  Before the busyness of the day.

2.  If health wasn’t an issue, what food could you live off of?
How about salad and breadsticks from the Olive Garden? 

3.  If you could have one wish granted (besides wishing for more wishes), what would it be?
Either for the Rapture to occur…or to have the many people whose salvation I pray for, come to a saving faith in Jesus Christ.

4.  What’s one thing that you get teased about a lot?

About being strong and opinionated.  I’m definitely not a wishy washy kind of gal.

5.  If you could choose one movie, book, or TV show to spend your life in, which would you pick? What type of character would you be?
Probably a Jan Karon book “At Home in Mitford”…one of the quirky towns people at church.

6.  If you could have one talent that you don’t already have, what would it be?

I would love to be able to play the piano.  I learned when I was young…but didn’t advance far and didn’t keep it up.

7.  If money were no object, where would you go on vacation?
An Alaska cruise with John MacArthur or Charles Stanley…with some great Gospel singing groups like Greater Vision.  Of course I would want a stateroom with a balcony.  Can you imagine seeing God’s creation along with other Christians who love the Lord?

8.  If you were an awesome singer, which genre would you sing?

Gospel Music

9.  If you could have a $10,000 shopping spree to one store, what would it be?
Best Buy…computer or camera equipment.

10.  If you could live in any point in time, when would it be?
I think right now…it’s just right for me.  I love to write and take photos…and the avenues that are open to me are marvelous. 

11.  If every outfit in your wardrobe had to be one color, what would it be?
Brown…even though it’s my husband’s least favorite…I like it.  Or maybe pink…but it depends on what shade. 

12.  If you were one of the seven dwarves, which one would you be?
(Doc, Grumpy, Sneezy, Sleepy, Bashful, Happy, or Dopey)

Happy…my husband says I’m perky…so that’s the closest. 

13.  What’s the last album you listened to?

It was either Keith & Kristyn Getty’s “Awaken the Dawn” or the soundtrack from “Facing the Giants”.

14.  What’s something we’d be surprised to know about you?
I used to be a shoplift agent.

Attention All Christians…Modesty Heart Checklist

At Kindred we are currently going through a study in Revelation.  For the past few weeks, the topic has been about the church at Thyatira.  In preaching through this passage, Pastor Philip De Courcy has been addressing the issue of sexual immorality.  While we’d like to think that the Christian church is immune to such temptation, I’m sure that we’ve all heard or seen many stories about pastors and prominent Christians who have fallen into sexual sin.

On Sunday, our church passed out a message from CJ Mahaney called “The Soul of Modesty”. 

The Soul of Modesty” is an excellent message and one that all Christians should hear.  Be it a Christian woman who is trying to navigate the waters of looking attractive, but trying not to tempt men into sexual sin.  Or the father and mother trying to raise their children in a culture that is hostile to Christian values. 

In the message CJ Mahaney mentions a guide that his wife Carolyn Mahaney and their daughters put together.  “Modesty Heart Check” is a checklist for both the heart and the dress of Christian women. 

I can promise you will be challenged by both the “Modesty Heart Check” and CJ Mahaney’s message “The Soul of Modesty”.  Challenged, but in a good way. 

Doesn’t God’s word tell us that we are to have the mind of Christ?  (1 Corinthians 2:16)  As a Christian…there nothing that is off limits to God and that includes my dress. 

I encourage you to click on the above links and learn from CJ Mahaney’s very transparent message how a woman’s dress effects men and Carolyn Mahaney’s guide for Christian women. 

Overriding Love

 

It was the day
God’s love overrode His righteous wrath
Against sinful man

Where He offered me a sinner
Mercy, grace and forgiveness
Called this enemy, His friend

But God’s wrath towards sinful man
Was poured out in full
Against the only begotten Son of God

The innocent Lamb of God
Put on my sin
So that the wrath of God would be satisfied

The Word of God
Fulfilled Scripture that day
Submitting Himself to the Father’s plan


By Susan Bunts Wachtel
February 23, 2010

Scripture Recitation by Rachel and Joshua

Recently some dear friends, Rachel and Joshua did Scripture Recitation during Sunday morning’s service. Their example and commitment to memorize Scripture is both inspiring and challenging.  
God has impressed upon me the importance of memorizing Scripture.  He is so faithful and shortly after I had memorized several verses God enabled me to take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ by focusing my thoughts on His Word.  
I pray that you will be encouraged by Rachel and Joshua’s video.  Please also take some time to read their blogs:

San Juan Memories

I nearly choke back tears at the thought
Your feet may have strode upon the blue cobblestone bricks
That my feet tread upon today
Did you sit under a starry midnight sky
With a warm gentle breeze blowing
The sound of waves breaking on a nearby beach
Did you enjoy Sunday afternoon in the park
Teaching your two little brown eyed boys
To fly a kite high in the sunlit sky
Did your eyes gaze upon the azure blue sea
Watch the waves break
Taste the salty spray in the air
Can it really be nearly 50 years ago
A young wife became a mother
Made San Juan, Puerto Rico her home
by Susan Bunts Wachtel
February 16, 2010
Dedicated to my mother Gayle Merriam Johnson Bunts Lorenat

A Time Away…Cruising the Southern Caribbean

Hair Dryer Revelations

 

As I started my day I was overwhelmed
Feeling defeated by the mountain of responsibility that stood before me
Downcast at the prospect of walking through a dark valley
While drying my hair…God met me in my weakness
 
God assured me that He did not bring me to this mountain
So that I would be overwhelmed by my inability
But so He might come alongside me
Walk with me and strengthen me so that I can overcome by His power
 
God did not bring me to the valley
That I might be overwhelmed with despair
But that He would meet me there
Walk with me and bring me through the valley in His presence
 
Oh Lord, may I hold fast to You and remember
You are well able to handle all that concerns me today
May I find encouragement when facing a mountain or valley
Know with certainty that You are with me and will bring me through
 

Susan Bunts Wachtel
February 3, 2010
 
 

Chosen

When I suffer trouble or hardship
May I recognize I have been chosen by God
Not picked on
 
May I be willing to suffer affliction
As a tool and an instrument
In the hands of the Master
 
Confident that God will use all difficulties
To help build a solid faith on the firm foundation of Christ
Not a faith founded on the shifting sands of circumstances
 
Knowing that He has entrusted me with troubles
So that my heart might be made tender
To the hurting souls around me
 
So those who lack outward beauty
Won’t be invisible to me,
May I be focused more on them, less on me
 
May the reproach of this world
Hold little sway or weight
Compared to the approval of God
 
May I take that which troubles me
Thoughts and attitudes that tempt me to sin
Lay them down at the cross
 
May I let go of my false beliefs and misperceptions
Tainted by this world of sin
Instead saturate my heart and mind with God’s word
 
My I recognize my unbelief is not harmless
But a sin against God
Calling into question His motives and character
 

By Susan Bunts Wachtel
January 14, 2010

Sometimes I find myself tempted to ask “Why me God?” when I encounter seasons of prolonged difficulties.  But I must say that God is so good and faithful to use difficult circumstances, trials, temptation and pain to prepare me to reach out to others.  He is so faithful to redeem my dark days by allowing me to come alongside people and encourage them or testify to the faithfulness of the Lord. 

An Inconvenient Life

The abortion industry thrives on despair
Prospers on lies and deception
But the truth is
It’s a baby, not just a fetus
A child, not tissue

A mother’s womb
So perfectly designed by God
To nourish and protect
Nascent human life
Has become a chamber of death

They say it’s just tissue and won’t feel a thing
But he is already fully formed, all organs in place
With arms and legs, hands and feet
And a beating human heart
Knit so perfectly together by God in the hidden place

This wee little one…does he feel anxiety
As adrenalin courses through his mother’s body
He’s resting, protected within his mother’s womb
Until a probe enters in
And pokes him in the side

He has no knowledge of what it is
He only knows it hurts
His arms and legs flail
He tries in vain to move away
But there will be no escape

In a matter of seconds
A beating heart is stilled
His body is mangled and torn apart
As it silently slips away through the hose
His life and death invisible to all but God

The mother who was to give birth
Sentenced her child to death
The one who pledged to protect human life
Now extinguishes life for profit
Parents who desire to have a babe in their arms must wait a little longer

An inconvenience, a consequence
Soon to be swept away by a “simple procedure”
But this child will never be forgotten
Reminders surround his mother…even haunt her
It’s everywhere…the smile of a child or a date on the calendar

But there is healing and forgiveness to be found
Confession
Repentance
Salvation through Christ Jesus the Redeemer
Adoption by the Lover of her soul

By Susan Bunts Wachtel
January 21, 2009

This poem was inspired by Abby Johnson, former Planned Parenthood director, turned Pro Life when confronted with the undeniable truth…it’s a baby growing within a womb.  To hear her story log on to Focus on the Family and listen to the shows from January 21 and 22, 2010. 

The Gift of Discouragement

Oh lowest and most evil one
I have a delicious, delectable bad report
Of inroads made into the hearts and minds the enemy’s saints
 
God gives the gift of, dare I say, encouragement
But I’ve been able to successfully supplant it
With the gift of discouragement
 
Aided by pride and feelings of self righteousness
The unsuspecting saint didn’t have a clue
Of the exchange made while sitting in the church pew
 
The overflow of their heart
Spewed forth criticism and condemnation
Aimed squarely at a fellow believer
 
Unaware of the opportunity God presented
To pray for, encourage, and build up one another
I was able to come alongside and whisper in their ear
 
Out of their mouth came words I effectively used
To tear down, discourage and cause division
With one they call brother in Christ
 
As they sat in church
Feelings of superiority took hold
While they focused on the faults and failures of another
 
All the while
I was able to distract the one who was hurt
With hurt feelings, anger and un-forgiveness
 
The real victory was won
When I distracted both from hearing the pastor’s message
The Word of God was falling on deaf ears and distracted minds
 
I predict continued success
So long as they fail to take every thought captive
Or resist offering forgiveness for an offense
 
I dare say we may take even more of the enemy’s ground
If we can light a fire and watch it spread throughout the congregation
Fueled by pride and self-righteousness
 

Susan Bunts Wachtel
January 18, 2010
 

Another

Another store front went dark today
Another business locked their doors
Another owner won’t be collecting rent for their property
 
Today, countless employees joined the ranks of the unemployed
More people were given bad news
You’re dismissed, turn in your keys and go home
 
An application for unemployment
Worry sets in
How long will it be?
 
Another resume submitted
The waiting begins
Finally a call comes in and an interview is scheduled
 
Another offer…with wages so low it won’t even pay the rent
Another email, “I’m sorry but…we’ve selected another candidate.”
Another day goes by…no news and nothing on the horizon
 
I’m sorry, you are overqualified
We can’t pay you what you’re worth
If we hire you, surely you won’t stay
 
There’s a knock at the door
It’s the superintendent coming to collect rent
Shhhhh…be quiet…maybe he’ll go away

Please just give me a chance
I’m desperate to put food on the table and pay the rent
I have a wife and children at home…I don’t want them to go hungry another day
 
 
By Susan Bunts Wachtel
January 14, 2010
 

This poem is dedicated to the many people on my prayer list who have lost their job and to Jesus Christ…the One who is faithful and true.  May His mercy and grace abound as He brings you through this difficult season.